If you let them go and they don't come back, they were never the one. I was thinking he would come back, he was "the one". He was supposed to fight for me and be my best friend. But he lied to me, so I lied back. I told him I trust him. And I absolutely dont. He had a thing with a "friend" of mine within weeks. And lied to me about it. How is that trustworthy. I dont trust either of them. Or the friends I think I have, because they would choose anyone else over me. I've been imagining and wishing for my dream boy for quite some time now. Why wont he get here already? I need a best friend, someone I can be completely comfortable with...I know its really pathetic but I take comfort in the fact that she wont be as good as I was. The first kiss can tell him that, and he should know already that he wont have what we had. Shes just his rebound and shes getting my sloppy seconds and they will not make each other happy for very long. God, I'd love to get out of here, I'm just scared I wont know what to do when I'm gone. And I'm scared the same people will be everywhere. If thats the case, jesus I dont know what Ill do. If only I can find someone who will make me feel like Mike did on those occassions he felt like making me happy, but all the time, and for no other reason than because he loves me. Are there even guys out there like that? I dont know, but I sure hope so. For now, maybe I'll flirt around...Get a cute guys number from London or something. I do love those accents. :)